a so-called wake up call

one second you are standing at your school yard, attending a morning ceremony with your sweaty school cap in your head

one second you are holding your teenage boyfriend's hand in a dark movie theater, with a fast-beating-heart

one second you are holding a 2B pencil, and facing a stack of final test questionaire and a computer-answer-sheet

one second you are attending lecturing class and you are busy doodling in your notebook

one second you are playing with your friends' hearts as if you are an expert of being in love

one second you are typing your thesis and drowning into hundreds of textbooks and thousands of words

one second you are graduating

one second you are an employee

one second you are attending your friend's wedding, and then another, and then many others, until you're sick of it

one second you are admiring your friend's newborn baby and really want one for your own

one second you're thinking alone for your life

one second you are standing on solid ground

one second you are falling down

and one second you are finally awake.